Jared

I really need to update the last few weeks here, but I have so many things which have been on hold that I need to catch up on or take care of. I'll have to make only a comment or two now, and then just get to this when I can.

Our son was hadn't been well for quite a few years before his death. A few years ago, he told us that two different hospitals he'd been in had diagnosed him with schizoaffective disorder.

I think I'll just post this song for now.

I miss him.

At Jared's memorial service, Two of our friends, Diane Hull and Andrew Doria, so beautifully sang this song, which expresses so many of the emotions involved in all this. I had put the words together, altering some of the original words to fit these circumstances, about a year and a half ago. I had called it "Song for Jared" because I had a feeling that we might be needing it for him at some point.

Song for a Son
[sung to Josh Groban's "February Song"
Click 'Play' below to hear how it would
go with the melody.]

(Parent)
Where has our dear son gone,
Off in a lost and lonely song
One day before too long
He’ll open his eyes, open his eyes.

(Son)
Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades.
How did I ever fade
Into this night, into this night.

I never wanted to let you down.
How did my world slip away?
All that I am is still inside.
You'll know the one who I am
Again someday.

Morning is waking up
Sometimes it hurts to bear so much.
Prayer for the peace and love
That God can impart,
Quiets my heart.

I never wanted to let you down.
How did my world slip away?
Can't find myself on solid ground
'Cause I keep on falling, as I fight to
Find my place within this world.
Fight to find my place within this world.

I never wanted to let you down.
Forgive me for slipping away.
Even the lost, our Lord makes found.
I will be waiting, and I'll see you there some day.

Now that our dear son’s gone
Finished his lost and lonely song.
Tell him it won't be long
'Til he opens his eyes
And we’re at his side.

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